One of my favorite stories is in Mark 5: 21-43, it speaks on compassion, courage, healing and faith.  Reading this chapter over and over again, kept me pondering, who is Jesus to me and what is my faith level? What is Jesus saying to me in this scripture? I asked my Lord that I must have compassion like Jesus, faith like Jairus and the woman with the issue of hemorrhaging. As I read this passage on Jairus asking Jesus to heal his daughter, he came running to Jesus knowing and believing only Jesus can heal. Jairus who is one of the rulers of the synagogue with such courage fell at the feet of Jesus, forgetting his status and the crowd who was around him, he was not embarrassed.

                Sometimes in a secular world, I myself tend to forget when difficult circumstances arise and feelings of anxiety creep  in, I do seek advice from whom I am close with instead of falling on my knees and seeking Jesus to search and heal me of my concerns and anxieties. I realize that I take Jesus for granted at times knowing that he knows what’s in my heart and I need not seek him to ask. Jairus knew that Jesus was his first and only hope. When I start to reflect on this passage, Jesus is asking me “Who Am I to you”? Do you believe in me? I was taken back and reflected on this further.

                I wanted to be like Jairus, running to Jesus first for everything and believing that Jesus is ever present in my life even though the world seems bleak. Jesus should be my all in all; every breath I take is his. He tells me not to be afraid of everything that is happening now but only have faith, believe! He is the source and giver of Life. Only with Jesus, like Jairus’ daughter, I am able to rise.

                I lost my job last December 2020. I was worried and asked the Lord will I survive through this pandemic? Like the hemorrhaging woman in faith who summed up her courage to touch the garments of Jesus believing that she will be healed, I now see that the little faith I have is enough to begin with. Jesus is constantly saying to me “Do not fear, only believe.”