As I try to make sense of what is happening in the entire world after Covid brought chaos, confusion and  disorder, I recall the scene of the Israelites who walked in darkness.  This shadow of darkness dawned on us  like a bolt of thunder awakening,  slowly tracking into chaos and thereafter the real aftermath.  We ask like little innocent children, Why is God doing this?  Our whole being is turned upside down and tragically torn apart.  An experience of disorder in totality.

Is something  very wrong?  We need to negotiate truthfully with God!  Does he want us to recall that all have sinned and have fallen short of the glory of God; not even a glimpse of  the length and breadth of this severe plague which has cornered us. Do we continue to argue and complain OR  accept what has taken place as available space to renew our relationship with God and move from lockdown to unlock the treasures of our true heart. Our strength comes from within, our willpower determines if we make it, our endurance will win us our lives.

The overall universal impact  was pretty much the same with the loss of jobs, economy downturn, reverse expectations, limited movement, health risk, loss of lives and the expanded list of gloom and doom go on. Many did not cave in but it was a bitter pill to swallow, especially when you see the elderly at risk of depression from being distanced from loved ones.   How does one pick up the broken pieces and rise again?

The pattern of our life with its tattered embroidery in knots has to begin with leaning on spiritual strength to see us through our journey of life.  It is the key  to put things back in order and do what matters most.  So the process of Embracing, Accepting and Reuniting with our Creator, the author of life takes its form to rebuild our lives making all things new again. Time passed so swiftly, leaving us engrossed with our own demands and needs, leaving no space for spiritual nourishment.  This is an opportune time to re-ignite our thirst for God, take stock of our life and to give back what belongs to God with praise and thanksgiving.  

Moving into my later years now, I  mirrored  my life to be filled with joy, mind & body at rest and soul at peace.  Doing things at leisure, sipping fresh coffee, revisiting old  friends, connecting with the tech savvy world and  watching the fast-paced life from a distance.  But it was just wishful thinking.  Pondering over what is in sight and looking at the extent of how the pandemic has disrupted the ordinary life, it has been an unsettling time for unfavourable adjustments. Despite these setbacks, somehow there is always light,  the rainbow, the flicker of hope,  a window for a better tomorrow. I now find solace indulging in reading about the lives of many spiritual writers and Doctors and Fathers of the church and am fascinated with their chequered disarrayed lives, no different from mine, yet found complete fulfillment in their whole being.